The Rantings of Deb

Thursday, June 25, 2009

ONLINE SCAMS!!!!!

So I found myself unemployed and actively searching for any kind of work to make ends meet so that we will be okay. I keep getting these online scams and it is really pissing me off. Here is the latest one and my response to the fuck head!!!

Dear applicant,

We have received your resume and on behalf of our HR department we are grateful to inform that you are acceptable for the position of Assistant Of Accountant.

Below you can find additional information about your tasks, responsibilities, salary and working conditions.

JOB DESCRIPTION

Position: Assistant Of Accountant

Department: Cost Accounting Department

Gross Salary: $ 2,000.00 per month + 5%from transactions

AIM OF THE POSITION:

BG Project is a well-established financial insurance company, a trustworthy worldwide partner, and a venerated corporate citizen. The success and strength of our business lies first and foremost with our staff. Therefore, if our actions are dynamic, modern, creative and experienced, it is due to the employees who sustain our business, and who can be best described by those four words. We offer our customers cost efficient, swift money transfer service for protecting them against financial loss. For avoiding affect of Global Money Crises and proper running customer’s business our financial representatives work on receiving payments from corporate customers directly in their region and transferring to our offices via alternative financial services and communications companies.

MAIN DUTY

Receive payments from customers

Prepare reports for each transaction

Keep periodic balance sheets of amounts and numbers of transactions

Work with money transfer systems (for detailed information please visit www.westernunion.com or www.moneygram.com )

REQUIRED SKILLS

Team work

Knowledge of MS Office

Knowledge of cash handling and record keeping standards and practices

Ability to understand and follow moderately complex oral and written instructions

WORKING CONDITIONS

Working time: part-time

During the working time it is recommended to keep the mobile on

Work at your internet-office with banks and money transfer systems

Work is performed under general supervision/guidance of the Area Financial Manager

We ask you to get back to us with a confirmation on whether you, after having carefully considered your job assignments, are interested in taking up this position and work for our company.

After receiving your confirmation you might be interviewed by our HR manager, besides we will provide you with Employment Agreement and the list of necessary documentation for making your personnel file.

If you have any additional questions don’t hesitate to contact us.

Best regards,

Daniel Walker

__________________

BG Project

Mr. Walker-

It is very difficult to wade through the scams from online companies. So please forgive me if this is insulting. I found myself unemployed 5 weeks ago and I was a very well paid accounting professional. Now I am scrubbing toilets and doing other peoples household chores to provide food for my daughter. What I am trying to say is I am a hardworker who will do anything to provide for my child.

Then I accept a job on-line from some person claiming to be in California that mails me fraudulent money orders to kick me while I am down. I am not an ignorant woman so before depositing them in my bank and sending the balance back to my ""BOSS"" I checked it out. Some idiot was trying to steal from me and my child. Imagine my disgust to see some people are just that cruel. I can only imagine that this is what you are trying to do. You should be ashamed of yourself, your mother is ashamed of you, and the man that made you is ashamed of you. I pray that when bad times fall on you that you do not find some money hungry ass trying to kick you when your down!!!

Sincerely

Mrs. MacFarlane

Monday, June 08, 2009

My husband is everywhere I turn

I missed Scott so very much while we were separated by 3 1/2 hours and he was finishing school and I was raising Sophia alone. Now I wish he was 3 1/2 hours away. I am going stir crazy. Everytime I turn around he is right there. What are you doing? Why? Wanna take a shower?

It is like dude!!!! Leave me alone!!! I love him, I do. I feel like the worse wife ever, I just want a little space. I got so used to me time and now that has been yanked away and there is no such thing as a nice relaxing shower ALONE or late night mindless tv without his comments of "I can't believe you are watching that" or better yet the bed hog and the blanket stealer! I had forgotten all about never having me time when we were separated, I whined about being sooooo lonely. Now what I wouldn't give for 10 minutes in the shower without him feeling as though it is an invitation to join me everytime I go!

I know it will be different once we start working but right now I am going absolutely insane. I can't even check my e-mail without him standing over my shoulder. What the Hell???

Monday, June 01, 2009

Sophia is Two!!!

I can't believe how big my little girl has gotten, it seems like only yesterday I was huge and begging her to come and show herself to the world. Well she has done that and has set the world on fire!!!

Alot has happened in the last 9 months since I have been here. I went through a long period of weakness missing Scott and struggling to hold everything together for him and Sophia. I never thought the day would arrive when we would be a family again and all 3 live under the same roof. The time has come and he is here. I thought things would be so very different and so much easier but God always has a way of stepping in and changing the plans and saying that isn't the path I have chosen for you.

Scott graduated from school with the promise that there was a job waiting here in Houston with me and Sophia. I was working hard and making great money, enough to support all 3 of us comfortably. Then the economic doom and gloom finally hit the construction industry here in Houston and I found myself among the unemployed. Scott job promise turned south with the floundering economy and we find ourselves preparing for a long hard struggle once again.

This time things aren't as bad as we had savings, however they will quickly dwindle. I guess the silver lining in all this is it is something we are very much use to doing. I am not afraid of government cheese! I just hate having to be someone looking for that hand out.

Sophia turned two yesterday and it was a beautiful day full of sun and a bouncy water slide, she loved it, I loved it and it meant so much to me that we were able to give her such a joyous day!

Thursday, September 18, 2008

Reason 5621157963 that I hate my mother

So hurricane Ike hit. Destroyed Galveston, devastated Houston and mangled Conroe. My parents live in Conroe as does my mother in law. My mother in law is quite a flaky woman, but we love her, she is Scott's mommy and Sophia's MiMi. So when we couldn't get ahold of her we were worried.

We became more worried as the days passed and we still couldn't get ahold of her. We called the police and asked for a drive by to check on her. They informed us that they were not doing those as phones were spotty and they may not be able to call back and let you know the person is okay. We became increasingly worried as days went by and we were able to reach all of our friends and my family.

See MIL lives alone. No boyfriend, no close friends that we know how to reach. Calls to her job were left unanswered. So I caved and called my mom, my mother who does nothing and asked her to drive the 10 miles to her home to see if she was alive. She asked for her numbers and reported back to me that she didn't answer her calls. Well no shit dumbass that is why I asked you to drive there!!!??!!! She then tells me she doesn't think she can make it there because of traffic. Yet a day later when I call to see if she has gone she is at the airport 45 miles from her home picking up some random non family person! Yet she can't go check on my MIL. I am pissed but I laugh it off as this is how my mom is. See BC doesn't have money and therefore is not important. BC also knows what my mother has done to Sophia and I and my mother is scared to face that music. Yet we are here thinking a tree might be on top of her or something.

It was embarrassing to say the least to have to explain to my brother in law that my mother, the woman who was there at my birth, the woman who supposedly knows better than I how to raise a child, is too shallow to go check to make sure his mother is alive because family means nothing to her.

Craig made the drive to check on his mother. 12 hours later he finds her okay without water, telephone, and power, but okay. thank God.

But hey mom thanks. Thanks for giving me one more reason to resent you, because really I didn't have enough already. What with being beaten all my life by you, being a great disappointment by being such a terrible dirty whore and oh yeah the topper watching you strike my child! You are a sick woman. I feel sorry for you. I have told Sophia that you are sick and we can't be around you anymore. Because really mom it isn't your fault that you are the way you are. You are too sick to know that there is a better way to be.

Wednesday, September 17, 2008

My beautiful angel....

It has been great having these last few lazy days off eith Sophia. She is a sweet little angel. She is learning so much and enjoying this vacation with me and daddy so very much (thanks Ike!!) It is so fun to watch her explore and fall in love with the simple joys of summer and childhood! Watching things through her eyes makes me feel like a kid again.

Oppression???

Maybe I am just an ignorant southern woman, but I am sick and tired of listening to people bad mouth Sarah Palin. People say oh she is a feminist who is for the oppression of women. I don't get that.

How is she for oppressing women? Because she is pro-life and against abortion? I am just pleased that she is a woman and a candidate who stands by her convictions. She knew her child had down syndrome and did not abort. Her teenage daughter gets knocked up and she doesn't make her have an abortion in some secret little place no one would ever know about. So to me she is really pro-life and really stands by that. I like that. I myself am pro-choice and would hate to see that right be taken from women. But I admire her convictions.

I am a Republican. I never thought I would say that. I was always very liberal and then I grew up and got a real job and made real money and wondered who the fuck is fica and futa and why do they get such a large chunk of my earnings?? I hate that the money taken from my checks is not given in a way to help the under privileged but is given in a way to hinder and hold them down. I have been on welfare. I used it as a hand up not a hand out. But there are people who have been on it for life and that is just plain wrong. If I can work so can you!

The Republican party has a lot of the same views as I do on immigration, war, healthcare, economics and foreign policy. Healthcare and Immigration are my biggest concerns. I do not want universal healthcare at all. If you do then move to a country that has it and when you need a surgery get on the waiting list and you may die before your chance to have the surgery! As far as immigration. I am all for someone coming to this country to live the American dream. Do it legally and I have not an issue with you. Learn English, work hard, and life will be good for you here. Wave your birth country's flag and bitch about what America hasn't done for you and find yourself in a shipping container aimed for your birth place.

I am scared that Obama will be elected. I am scared if he is elected he will be assassinated by some backwoods dumb redneck bubba who hates niggers. I fear when this happens a revolution will occur in this country. I feel we need a revolution, but that means fighting on our own soil. I fear that.

I like Sarah Palin, I will vote for McCain because of her. I respect her and the things she has done in her very short stint in office. But can someone please explain to me why people say she is oppressing women??

Monday, September 15, 2008

I Survived Ike

I guess all my moaning about missing my husband made the big guy upstairs take some notice. I never thought the Hurricane would hit Galveston, I never thought if it did it would have such an affect on Houston, where I now live. I was released from the office on Thursday at noon and told get your daughter and get home to Scott.

I didn't blink. I ran to daycare. I ran to the garage I live in. I threw our belongings in the exploder and I zoomed to sit in traffic. Traffic that turned my 4 hour drive into 10. Lucky for me I knew a few little back roads that are not on the map apparently as I was able to zoom down them at 80 with nary a care in the world, and no lines at the gas pump.

I am pleased to say that 3 large trees fell on the wicked witch of the wests house (my mother). I am non so pleased that where I stay will not have running water or electricity for up to 4 weeks. I am very pleased to say that my boss. That beautiful man that I adore, that is just brilliant I tell you, is allowing me to work remotely from New Braunfels until my jobs that I am assisting the running of have electricity!!!! That is at the very least 2 whole weeks!!!!!!

So Ike, this is where I say thank you! Thank you for devastating my city. Thank you for letting me stay with my husband. Thank you for giving me this short little break where I don't have to do it all where I get to have my love right beside me!

On the other hand Fuck you Ike, Fuck you for devastating my city and causing so many to have to suffer through your wake. I realize that the city and the surrounding areas needing a good douching out, but seriously 2 weeks or more without power and water is not so bueno. Comprende??

Tuesday, September 09, 2008

It is hard

Every week I go to work Monday thru Friday, 6 am until 6 pm. I pick my daughter up from daycare. I feed her, bath her and have a few precious snuggle moments before I put her to sleep. Every Friday morning I load up the car for our trek home to my husband, her daddy.

We chat on the way, or I chat and she repeats daddy, asha. As all she understands is we are going to see daddy and Sasha. She sleeps some and we arrive for a whirl wind visit, that is never long enough. I miss him.

I don't see how single moms make it. I live for the weekends for a break. A chance to sleep in, to not be the only parent. Single moms and dads don't have that break. I have a new found appreciation for the strength and courage it takes to raise a child alone.

That being said, it is hard. Sophia is teething, this truly means sleepless nights, and long days at the office. I am exhausted and I am lonely and I need my husband. I need the man that I lean on to hold me up and he is 4 hours away. 4 hours away in our home while I live in a strangers garage. I feel very alone and miserable. It is hard.

8 months to go. I find myself beginning to feel a tad bit resentful that he has all this free time. Time to relax. Time to sleep. No diapers to change, no meals to prepare, no baths to give, no screams in the middle of the night to answer....

This makes me feel like a great big selfish bitch. I need to find some strength. I need to keep reminding myself this is what is going to be best for our family, he will graduate with honors in 8 months. I have to hold it together.